Ordinary

I said your name today But it wasn’t for you No, it’s never for you That would imply that we’re ever in the same room I thought of you every time it left my lips I felt guilt overwhelm me as it left my lips Did he feel the sting of your name too? Did […]

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Of Course Not

You sit on the edge of the bed bare My eyes trace the outline of your tattoo The black lines that mark your family line Could I be in it? If I traced your veins One by one Back to your heart Could I be in it? If I asked you every question Every question […]

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E is for Elliott

This is how I know that love is a choice The beginning of relationships are beautiful. The newness is exciting. The excitement is breathtaking. It is breathtaking how much you can love someone new, so quickly. Deciding to love someone, the same someone, for an extended period of time is the hardest commitment. Long term […]

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Settling

Your mattress was uncomfortable But maybe it went further than that Maybe I should have looked further than that Maybe I should have recognized that even though I felt alive, I also didn’t recognize the person I was As I laid there, on your hard mattress, juxtaposed with your feather pillows Maybe I should have […]

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B is for Bacteria

No, not the bacteria that lies in waiting to attack your immune system, but the bacteria that infests your soul, your well-being, and your all-around state of being. The bacteria that comes on slowly, and then blindsides you, and leaves you in a disillusionment, and the all-encompassing feelings of bewilderment. Like a sleeper wave, the […]

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A is for Ambivalence

Utter transparency; I struggled with this title. On a typical day, I know what to write, but that is without the pressure of knowing that at some point, some unfortunate soul may read it. On the first go around, I had “A is for attachment.” Next came, “A is for apology.” Following this, nearly ensured […]

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