Just a phony

I hated it, really. It was the summer between my Junior and Senior year of high school. Like any abnormal soon to be Senior, I was spending the summer chipping away at my AP English reading list, and writing essay’s as maniacally as I could. I can hardly remember a majority of the novels on […]

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Quarantine & ME

Let’s just say I’ve been training for this my whole life. I am grateful to have a job that is 1) essential, and 2) that allows me to work from home. As quarantine began, my body also succumbed to a sickness that had been trying to overcome me for what seems like month. I am […]

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Thanks for the Distance

I’m finally learning to hold my tongue Much tighter than I ever held you I’m realizing that I’ve fought harder to let you go than I did to let you stay Because losing you was the last resort But losing you was the last straw I’m finally learning how to love you From afar, of […]

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This Year

This year will be the first year The first year where someone asks, “When’s the last time you spoke?” I’ll say, “Last year” This year will be the first year The first year where someone asks, “When’s the last time you kissed?” I’ll say, “The year before last year” This year will be the first […]

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Second Best

I once had a favorite pair of shoes They were dark chestnut, flat, lace-up booties I wore them to extinction Ever year around Fall I search for a pair of boots to replace them I search with hope and vigor, but alas I cannot find them I search, but damn it, I cannot find them […]

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I is for Indifference

I think I am more afraid of running into you Instead of any natural disaster Or sudden death Is it natural? Is it normal? That I call you by your name? Yet I only utter that name about three times a year Another December passes And onto February We’re both a year older I feel […]

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G is for Grandma

It has been almost five years since my Grandmother passed away. With each day that passes, her memory becomes only more beautiful, more meaningful, and more enlightened – she was the most gentle force my world has ever seen. All that she was is everything I hope to emulate. She is who I hope to […]

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Ordinary

I said your name today But it wasn’t for you No, it’s never for you That would imply that we’re ever in the same room I thought of you every time it left my lips I felt guilt overwhelm me as it left my lips Did he feel the sting of your name too? Did […]

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Of Course Not

You sit on the edge of the bed bare My eyes trace the outline of your tattoo The black lines that mark your family line Could I be in it? If I traced your veins One by one Back to your heart Could I be in it? If I asked you every question Every question […]

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E is for Elliott

This is how I know that love is a choice The beginning of relationships are beautiful. The newness is exciting. The excitement is breathtaking. It is breathtaking how much you can love someone new, so quickly. Deciding to love someone, the same someone, for an extended period of time is the hardest commitment. Long term […]

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Settling

Your mattress was uncomfortable But maybe it went further than that Maybe I should have looked further than that Maybe I should have recognized that even though I felt alive, I also didn’t recognize the person I was As I laid there, on your hard mattress, juxtaposed with your feather pillows Maybe I should have […]

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B is for Bacteria

No, not the bacteria that lies in waiting to attack your immune system, but the bacteria that infests your soul, your well-being, and your all-around state of being. The bacteria that comes on slowly, and then blindsides you, and leaves you in a disillusionment, and the all-encompassing feelings of bewilderment. Like a sleeper wave, the […]

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I wandered lonely as a cloud

That floats on high

O'er valleys and hills

When all at once I saw a crown

A host of golden daffodils;

Beside the lake

Beneath the trees

Fluttering and dancing

In the breeze

William Wordsworth